Hidden Reward

Fake it until you make it, is the speech I give my heart.

Because right now my whole world falls apart.

Nothing is happening, no difference do I see.

While the people all around are changing before me.

Every day the same old life, no excitement in the air.

Sometimes the consistency is very hard to bare.

I cry and cry with no relief for a new season to come.

To be honest it seems like my tears will never be undone.

So many questions as to why I am in my current state.

Lord I am begging answers please before I become irate.

I faithfully serve with all I am and still to no avail.

The desires in my heart seem like they will never prevail.

Others who do wrong are flourishing it seems.

While here I am with no reward and many unfulfilled dreams.

I feel like I have lost the will to go further with my vision.

Even though I know the things I see are really God given.

Where are you Lord? Why are you silent? Did you forget about me?
I need you to come swiftly to set me free from my misery!