A Mindful God

In times of weakness encouragement comes

When my hope seems to be on the run

The Lord sends proof of His promises

Through an unlikely source with who I never communicate

The words that were written hit straight to my heart

My emotions are undone and I begin to come apart.

Clearly these words were spoken from the Lord.

Because when I read them the tears they did pour

It reiterates in my mind that the Lord won’t forsake me

He got a big plan that is too great for me to see

Stay steadfast immovable abounding in good works

For the Lord is working and will never abort.

Are you desperate?

 

I have come to realize recently how truly blessed I am in so many areas of my life. The hardships that most people experience daily have never been a second worry in my mind. When I express the foreignness of those struggles, other seem to think that I live in some alternate perfect universe. God has protected me from so much that it almost keeps me in a naive place when it comes to the harsh realities of life. Don't get me wrong, I am so thankful for all of this, but it made me think. "Have I ever been desperate for God?"

 

I have a strong love for gospel music. One of the reasons that I am so fond of that particular type of music is the fact that in a sense you can feel the emotions behind it. A lot of the songs are out of complete need and desperation for God's help. The songs kind of convict me and make me think. I can't recall ever a time in my life that I called on God in complete desperation. I am not saying that I am not grateful for my easier lot in life or that I don't have struggles but I will definitely say that by the grace of God these things don't overtake me. I think most Christians don't experience a desperation for God either or even see we need to be desperate for Him. We are blinded by our self sufficient ways that trusting in God is the second choice. We say that we are trusting God but really we have always had a back up plan in case God doesn't come through, therefore it was never trusting God in the first place .Trust me I am guilty of this very thing. Even the Psalmist David through the good times and the bad times knew what desperation for God looked like:

 

Psalms 42:1

As the deer pants for water, so does my soul pant for You, O God. My soul thirst for You, for the living God. 

 

David might be one of my favorites in the Bible because he talked to God as a friend and not just his Maker.or a distant Being. He spoke to God in the heighten of his emotions but never forgot God's faithfulness. This shows an example of a relationship with God. That is how we should be. I think as crazy as it seems there is something healthy about being desperate for God. It keeps us in a place of humility; walking by faith and not by sight. Where our only hope is in God and there is no other solution. That is true hope and faith. Romans 8:24  but hope that is seen is not hope; for why does one still hope for what he sees? Even as uncomfortable as it might be, it is actually the safest place to be in. God will come through everytime. His hope doesn't disappoint. His answer might not be the way we imagined but GREAT because His ways are HIGHER and GREATER than ours. He sees all sides of the problem to know the best solution  

I don't ever want to come to a place with my walk and relationship with God that He becomes my second choice. I want to be deperate for God. Who's with me?

It is funny that some of my best revelation comes at the weirdest times and in the weirdest places. I can say that some of my best thoughts comes while I am in the bathroom. Yea I know kind of strange but maybe it is because it is a place where I am the most vulnerable... Oh well only God knows. Today as I was reflecting on some things in life this revelation hit me.

 

Acts 2:21

And it shall come to pass That whoever calls on the name of the Lord Shall be saved.’

 

I started to ponder the signifigance of this verse, This is what God showed me:

Calling on the name of Jesus activates His promise in that situation.It is submitting to His authority. It gives him permission to act on your behalf.and go to work.

 

 

It is like shouting BINGO or UNO because you just defearted all you opponents. The authority that we have through that simple name is AMAZING. At that name everything that you are going through is utterly defeated. You are calling on the already victorious outcome of the situation because of what Jesus' blood did on the cross. When he said "It is finished" what He really meant was " Okay you won, game over!" No wonder that name is so powerful. When you catch revelation of that it is a game changer. How would you not utilize that? Just think about that everytime you go into a not so ideal situation. Call on Jesus' name and you have already won!

Boxed Living

Up, down; Left right

Everywhere I look I am trapped

Forward, back; Run, walk

Everywhere I step I am trapped

The broadening of my mind is too much for me to comprehend

But it’s ability to see beyond what surrounds me does not supersede His plan

Living by sight instead of by faith

Boxes you in and seals your fate

Claustrophobia settles

Mediocrity increases

The hope of my desires fulfilled decreases

My finite mindset entraps me in despair

And makes me question whether or not God is even there.

I have tied His hands

I have determined his plan

Because I forgot the limitations of man

The top begins to open

The walls are falling down.

I run and leap to where my future begins

Higher and greater is the one who lives in me

This is the revelation that begins to set me free

How bright, what a horizon I am beginning to see

Finally realizing boxed living isn’t for me.

Undefiled

So I have become a victim of how easily someone can be influenced by society or social media. Simply by watching television one's perspective can go from innocent to defiled. I choose to stay undefiled. I was watching one of my favorite televsion shows which for the most part is pretty innocent considering what is put on syndicated television.  There was a pretty graphic scene that lite up the screen. My first thought was that it was a little much for a viewing audience. I am not going to lie, for a black women I got embarassed and blushed, which because of my skin pigment is kind of hard to do. As the night went on that scene just kept playing in my head. My thoughts began to think about what I will have one day and how will it live up to what I saw. I began to desire something defiled. It put an unclean perspective on something so precious. I had to bring myself back to reality and realize that what I saw was no okay. Why would I compare myself to something that clearly wasn't God's design. I have made a commitment to God to live a holy lifestyle and to honor him in all areas of my life. I know through scriptire what that looks like. Revelation began to happen. No wonder so many young people and adults alike live in such distress and unfullfilled lives. They are looking at society and social media and trying to live up to those unreal expectations. They think they have to look a certain way, act a certain way, have certain things, or their relationships should mirror others to be happy. Those who are easily influenced become a product of what they are surrounded by. 2 Corinthians 10:12 says "But they, measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing themselves among themselves, are not wise. .It breaks my heart for those who don't understand that you are complete in Christ. We each are unique and don't have to live up to anyone's expectations but Christ's. His expectations are easy though. Because we are hidden in Christ, even that expectation was met by Jesus, who we are hidden in. God sees us as the spotless and blameless image when we accept Christ. This is my reality. I want to be confident in Christ and live a life undefiled. So my plea to you might be a little cheesy but I am reminded of the song " Be careful little eyes what you see." At the end of the day what you watch and listent to are playing a part in molding you into what you are becoming.

Hello
I love those unexpected times where God will use differnt things and situation to make His Word come alive. I sit back today and really evalutate the goodness of God. How all of my life, He has guided me and protected me. I have truly been blessed beyond measure. Because of this fact, I feel like I have been so sheltered to a lot of the world's hardships. I thank God for that! Just recently I had the opportunity to experience one of the most humbling and convicting experiences in my life. This truly brought alive the hurt, need, and pain that the world is in. God opened my eyes and allowed me to see things from His prespective and it broke me. The hurt He feels when people chose to turn away from HIm. In the midst of all of this God showed me a BIG revelation.  I think about the verse:

Philippians 4:19
And my God shall supply all of my needs according to His riches and glory in Christ Jesus.

Do we even really know what are needs are? I think so often we call our wants and desires our "needs" and then when those "needs" aren't met we start questioning the faithfulness of God. God is not a man that He should lie. It says in Matthew that God know what we need in every situations even before we know we need it and He promised to supply that basic need. Psalms 37:25  says " I have been young and now old , never have I seen the righteous forsaken nor His seed begging bread." A need is " a lack of something wanted or deemed necessary." A want is "something desired, demanded, or required." So I encourage you to evaualate when you ask God for something is it truly a need or something that you want? God is faithful to His Word everytime. One final thought. As I reflect as a young child, before I went to school  I was made to recite Psalms 23.  The very first verse " The Lord is my shephard I shall not lack." in this case it is to be in need.  Reflecting back on life, I can confidentally say that up until this point of my life I have never been in lack of my basic needs. That is a testament to God's faithfulness.

"Hello World" is very fitting. I am introducing myself and all my glory to everyone. All my quirks, my passions, my vulnerabilities, and my ambitions will be unfolded everytime that I write. Some might be funny ( that is just a part of who I am) and some might be a tad more serious, you just never know what you are going to get from me. i enjoy life and enjoy serving others. I am passionate about changing a generation. I have never done anything like this but I am thrilled to share a part of myself with the world. I love talking and I feel like sometimes I have more to express with words so writing has always been my next go to. I hope through my writing not only will I bring joy to your lives but also empower you to dream bigger and reveal things to you that challenges you to go to the next level. I am a zealous follower of Christ and unashamed of my faith and belief so majority of my writing and such if not all will have some kinds of spiritual theme. If that is something that might bother you or step on your toes than this is probably not the blog for you. I will not apologize for my faith and back down from "haters." To many times people will compromise their belief to be politcal correct and to make sure someone is not offended. That will never be me. I will not intentionally try to make someone mad because that is not my heart. My heart is to love any and everyone so if it comes off that way I do sincerly apologize. You can say what you want to say about me but at the end of the day this why I AM who I AM.