He didn't waste the good surprise on you.

When I was wee child, I never believed in Santa like most pups my age. Every year at Christmas, my mom and I would go to TOYS R US and she would give me a dollar amount and tell me to go pick out my presents. She then proceed to tell me that Jesus brought me my presents. So for the longest time I didn't even know who Kris Kringle was! I would wander around with pure excitement because I got to CHOOSE what I wanted. A kids dream come true right! WRONG! After wandering around the store elated (In my heart of hearts I thought that I would get them before Christmas) I would get home and my mom would make me wrap my own presents. Yes wrap them myself! Rude I know. I then would wait in anticipation for Christmas morn to open those very presents.This was every years. So let's just say through those experiences I have come to not be accustomed to surprises. I have always been in control of the "surprises" in my life. With that being said, have you ever heard of the statement that God is a SUDDENLY God? That sounds like a surprise to me. Remember my oppositions to surprises! A lot of things that we can be waiting to receive from God seems to happen at a suddenly rate. For God it was planned from before we were even born. In Psalms 139:16 it talks about how God knows each one of our days before one has come to be. Putting it that way, things aren't so suddenly now are they? Something that I am learning about these suddenly moments is that just because something is potentially a sudden answer to prayers doesn't mean it is a God suddenly. The moments that God has ordained in our life are going to bring PEACE not confusion, worry, or anxiety. Now will there be some questioning involved, ABSOLUTELY! Our flesh is always going to want to be in the know of what is going on. However things can look very good on the surface but aren't necessarily God. What I have come to realize is that the adversary can disguise himself as an angel of light. He can make something look so appetizing on the surface to lure you in. Because it is seems good, you begin to pursue that. Things progress for a while however in time things begin to go array, You wonder how something that started off as good can begin to unravel. Well like I addressed earlier just because something is good doesn't mean that it is God. I know you may be asking yourself "Bekah that doesn't make sense. I thought every good and perfect gift comes from above and this started off so good." You are right but if something eventually causes angst it obviously isn't good, perfect, nor from God. The enemy is a deceiver and imitator of God. Unlike God who wants to build our life, he is at enmity with us. He will make things appealing to our flesh in order to draw us in to eventually get us off track. He roars around like a lion seeking who he MAY devour. If you have cracks in your life, he sees those as opening to slowly bring death to your life. So how do we avoid this and make ourselves unapproachable by the enemy? We have to know God's voice and His voice sounds like His word. It is pivotal that we have God's word hidden in our hearts. This ensures that when cracks in our lives are unprotected God will remind you of His word and seal up the cracks This gives us knowledge to know what to do. Another way of protection is following your peace. Those suddenly God moments in your life are not going to lead you to worry or stress which ultimately leaves you confused. God is not a god of confusion but of peace. Our flesh loses our peace and that is the thing that questions God. We also can create or anxiety in those moments by over analyzing things so be aware of that. When we are so in tune with the Holy Spirit, though we may have questions there is a rest in our hearts that knows it is going to be okay. Isaiah 26:3  He keeps in perfect peace those who trust in Him, all whose thoughts are fixed on Him. Fix your thoughts on God by meditating on His word and you will have that peace, You aren't always going have a burning bush moment of what to do and when to do it (wouldn't that be awesome) so that is why it is important to know what your peace looks and feels like! Am I saying that with things we will get it right every time. Not at all but the great thing about God is that even if we miss Him, through His mercy He understands that we are fallible . Those who are making an effort to follow after Him, He will widen the path beneath our feet and turn our crook-it place straight. Even in the midst of our wrong choice it gives us a learning tool for the next time so don't be afraid to step out in faith. Don't quickly accept every suddenly moment in life but pray for discernment ask God for wisdom concerning that matter and be quick to stop and listen for God's voice. If you do these things you will begin to cultivate a lifestyle where you can distinguish between the "good" God suddenly moments and the "good" deceptive moments of the enemy.