Are you desperate?

 

I have come to realize recently how truly blessed I am in so many areas of my life. The hardships that most people experience daily have never been a second worry in my mind. When I express the foreignness of those struggles, other seem to think that I live in some alternate perfect universe. God has protected me from so much that it almost keeps me in a naive place when it comes to the harsh realities of life. Don't get me wrong, I am so thankful for all of this, but it made me think. "Have I ever been desperate for God?"

 

I have a strong love for gospel music. One of the reasons that I am so fond of that particular type of music is the fact that in a sense you can feel the emotions behind it. A lot of the songs are out of complete need and desperation for God's help. The songs kind of convict me and make me think. I can't recall ever a time in my life that I called on God in complete desperation. I am not saying that I am not grateful for my easier lot in life or that I don't have struggles but I will definitely say that by the grace of God these things don't overtake me. I think most Christians don't experience a desperation for God either or even see we need to be desperate for Him. We are blinded by our self sufficient ways that trusting in God is the second choice. We say that we are trusting God but really we have always had a back up plan in case God doesn't come through, therefore it was never trusting God in the first place .Trust me I am guilty of this very thing. Even the Psalmist David through the good times and the bad times knew what desperation for God looked like:

 

Psalms 42:1

As the deer pants for water, so does my soul pant for You, O God. My soul thirst for You, for the living God. 

 

David might be one of my favorites in the Bible because he talked to God as a friend and not just his Maker.or a distant Being. He spoke to God in the heighten of his emotions but never forgot God's faithfulness. This shows an example of a relationship with God. That is how we should be. I think as crazy as it seems there is something healthy about being desperate for God. It keeps us in a place of humility; walking by faith and not by sight. Where our only hope is in God and there is no other solution. That is true hope and faith. Romans 8:24  but hope that is seen is not hope; for why does one still hope for what he sees? Even as uncomfortable as it might be, it is actually the safest place to be in. God will come through everytime. His hope doesn't disappoint. His answer might not be the way we imagined but GREAT because His ways are HIGHER and GREATER than ours. He sees all sides of the problem to know the best solution  

I don't ever want to come to a place with my walk and relationship with God that He becomes my second choice. I want to be deperate for God. Who's with me?